[01] i am not : someone else.
[02] i love : the way you make me grin.
[03] i hate : to think back and regret.
[04] i fear : the day when i realised i've yet to accomplish anything.
[05] i hope : that everyone wld be happy.
[06] i hear : the radio?
[07] i regret : the many things i dont dare to do/say.
[08] i cry : when i'm sad or really touched.
[09] i care : for you.
[10] i always : am happy.
[11] i believe : that if i cld take away other's pain, i would.
[12] i feel alone : when i feel noone's there.
[13] i listen : to music.
[14] i hide : when i dont want to be seen.
[15] i sing : when i'm happy? like mad.
[16] i dance : mass dance during pe.
[17] i write : my feelings down.
[18] i play : stupid silly games.
[19] i dun play : computer games.
[20] i miss : canoeing.
[21] i search : for my innerself. ( HAHA)
[22] i feel : immune.
[23] i know : nothing.
[24] i say : (:
[25] i succeed : when i've tried my best.
[26] i fail : when i give up halfway.
[27] i dream : of you last night.
[28] i wonder : if one day i'd find an answers to my questions.
[29] i want : to be happy.
[30] i have : many things i've to be thankful for.
[31] i give : you everything if you want.
[32] i fell : and hurt myself.
[33] i hurt : myself.
[34] i tell : lies.

oh well. (:

it's just mixed feelings and emotions
that makes me the way i am now.

i suddenly had a feeling that all along, you were already -. that no one knew, that best kept secret of yours. i guess i still dont understand many things. the words you once said, the things you once did. maybe i was just thinking too much. and did you know, i dreamt of you last night. it was so..surreal. so haunting.
maybe i shld have let go long ago. and not hold on to it. and again, maybe what you said last time cld be interpreted it in two ways. and perhaps, i interpreted it in a different way than what you meant.
many things seem so right, yet so wrong. and so it is with you. i still dont understand, but. such things cant be explained out in mere words. it's more than that. maybe its time to forget it all.
as someone once said, " if every dream i have is of you, i would want to sleep forever."
i dont know why out of the million gazillion things in the world, i Had to dream of you. but, i guess theres a reason for everything. maybe i've been thinking of you too much.

but i dont have the courage.

oh well, i just hope you're happy now.
i would be too seeing you that way. (:
tc.

when promises became lies.
when promises werent even promises
but something i conjured up myself.

when everything wld just be,
a fragment of your memories to you,
but the bulk of mine.